light forming in the tunnel

Had dinner with a friend tonight and really was able to talk about things in life. The more we talked the more things became clear in my very foggy mind. He asked a simple question that I believe was given to him by the Holy Spirit and it stirred me. He said, "where do you go and what do you do when you hit the bottom or come to the end of the rope?" OK, I had to talk in circles until it hit me...my place is the son in the prodigal son story. It is a special place between God and me...for whatever reason that story comes straight from God to my heart...I want to be embraced and kissed by my father, God. Just living in that place is all I need...it is not a perfect place but tears form in my eyes and something (kingdom of God like) meets me on the inside and there is peace again. It mind sound elementary but it is the place where God and I most connect. To be completely loved is to just be the son...dirty, broken, hopeless...until the embrace...then peace. Good night bright moon...